Having been studying much so feel alittle guilty. Supposed go study with jojo n yishi tmr one budden sick now... so see lor. haha...

sometimes i just wish someone, anyone, cares that i'm sick.
And it's good/bad that I usually don't LOOK sick... fine. but it feels terrible. and i just wish someone at least cared...

I'm actually a little 一朝被蛇咬十年怕井绳. Recently realised I'm a little paranoid + oversensitive over small stuff. Eg one person too long nv come online -> go check if the person blocked me. etc etc.. Well... just so someone x2 did it before? haha.. I'm afraid. Feel insecure around JJCians. To me it's a scary place full of hypocrites and being stupid like me I can't differentiate who's truly nice and who's just for show. For everything I do I feel so bloody self-conscious and it sucks truly.

I miss those emoticons u used to have. and more lols. and words of concerns eg 'have a good rest'. they're no longer existent for me. Sometimes I don't understand why things change all of a sudden and no one feels they've changed. Tried convincing myself 'cos now we know each other more budden is it the case? Really? Or 'cos there's someone else more important so acquaintances like me are no longer qualified for such stufF? LOL. hm.. will u still concern yourself over whether im eating etc? lol.. I miss the little concerns. But you've turned sweeter as a whole. Well done! Will have more girls 追 you! haha

Quite done with liking anyone.
Betrayed once, took too long to see the truth.

And it's funny how superficial ppl think I am. Am I? lol. Just 'cos i say i like this person means I LIKE the person but for me I treat him more as my elder bro...? Nevermind it. Love ppl to think I'm stupid, naive, simple-minded, superficial, huachi, despo, emo, mood-swingish etc.. :D
And they just have to drop hints here and there that I LIKE HIM? lol... i sooo appreciate the fact that after he knows we can't even be good friends or talk that easily anymore. So thanks ah. BUT seriously if I really like like him I would have made a move. Fact that I didn't means I'd rather we be good friends for now. THANK YOU.

Sometimes it's just exasperating.
But it's a good thing the person all these are ment for won't bother enough to click and read this blog. LOL! :P *pats chest*

I don't like your tone.

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